-C
Monday, January 12, 2015
New Colors
It's a strange place to be in life when you get excited because the color of your pills changed this month. Not the medication itself, just the colors.
-C
-C
Thursday, January 1, 2015
The Trouble With Men
Who hasn't heard of the classic saying "can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em"? It's become my go to phrase over the past two years of actively dating. Actively dating as in, I want a relationship. A companion. I've grown up with some amazing examples of relationships, and I yearn for that. Two years of serial dating, broken hearts, bruised egos, and spending far too much time thinking about "the one that got away". Honestly, I'm exhausted.
The holidays are an especially fun time to be single...especially as the single in a family full of couples...okay, my niece Kate is a single too, but at 3 months old, I can cut her some slack. It's even harder to explain why this is difficult to my family. Don't get me wrong, I love my family to the ends of the earth. But with parents that met in middle school and who have been married over half their lives, it's tough explaining a void they've never experienced.
Here's the trouble with men though, they all seem to end up hurting you. The bad guys? Yep. The good guys? Sure enough. And here's the part that took me some time to realize; when you date a bad guy, you know you're going to get hurt. It's the undeniable truth. With good guys though, you expect more, you expect better; and when they inevitably hurt you, it hurts even more. You feel like the wind has been knocked out of you. You're left reeling.
In the offhand chance that the last potential someone reads this, it's nothing to do with you. No, if anything you started chipping away at some of the walls I'd built. And I could never so much as think of a harsh thing to say about you. And to those privy to additional information on the inner workings of my [lack thereof] love life, thank you for not prying for more than I want to share.
Who knows, maybe a new year means a new chance at finding a relationship. All I can say is God bless the man who puts up with my crazy mind, warped sense of humor, all my tears, and my over-sharing.
-C
The holidays are an especially fun time to be single...especially as the single in a family full of couples...okay, my niece Kate is a single too, but at 3 months old, I can cut her some slack. It's even harder to explain why this is difficult to my family. Don't get me wrong, I love my family to the ends of the earth. But with parents that met in middle school and who have been married over half their lives, it's tough explaining a void they've never experienced.
Here's the trouble with men though, they all seem to end up hurting you. The bad guys? Yep. The good guys? Sure enough. And here's the part that took me some time to realize; when you date a bad guy, you know you're going to get hurt. It's the undeniable truth. With good guys though, you expect more, you expect better; and when they inevitably hurt you, it hurts even more. You feel like the wind has been knocked out of you. You're left reeling.
In the offhand chance that the last potential someone reads this, it's nothing to do with you. No, if anything you started chipping away at some of the walls I'd built. And I could never so much as think of a harsh thing to say about you. And to those privy to additional information on the inner workings of my [lack thereof] love life, thank you for not prying for more than I want to share.
Who knows, maybe a new year means a new chance at finding a relationship. All I can say is God bless the man who puts up with my crazy mind, warped sense of humor, all my tears, and my over-sharing.
-C
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